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Julie has struggled with insomnia for over 20 years, and her lifestyle, working as a teacher and owner of a German pretzel bakery, has made it challenging for her to focus on sleep.


The “Bedtime” Fallacy

“Bedtime” is a fallacy. I have no internal bedtime. What a mystery: clock in, clock out. How do people do this? Dr. Dautovich gave me the idea that I need to compartmentalize my life. Maybe have an alarm to shut down my electronics. So I tried that tonight. I actually shut everything down around 9 p.m., and was in bed by 11 p.m. I don’t know when I fell asleep, but I woke up for some reason at 2 a.m. I couldn’t get back to sleep, so here I am writing a blog. When I’m woken up in the middle of the night like this, it just feels like daytime. I can pop out of bed. And I should just get up, because I can’t get back to sleep, anyways. I can get a lot done in these quiet hours. But here’s the thing – I always have an undercurrent of exhaustion. I’m wide awake, but exhausted. Day or night, I feel the same. So when I’m woken up in the middle of the night, I’m up. Up! Exhausted and up! I don’t know if that makes any sense.

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